just different.

i'm impatient.
very very impatient.
and i also give up on people too easily.
i guess i have ADD with people.

but i'm working on it.
because this feels different --
like i've finally found a reason
to actually put forth effort into
changing the negative things about myself
that i've always been too lazy to fix.

and the reason is.

"I’ve kissed a guy... I’ve kissed guys. I just haven’t felt that thing.... That thing... that moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy, and the only thing in focus is you and this person. And you realize that that person is the only person you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this amazing gift. And you wanna laugh and you wanna cry, ‘cause you feel so lucky that you’ve found it, and so scared that it’ll go away all at the same time." - Never Been Kissed

Me neither.