last day of 2011

it's been a heavy heavy week.
i apologize for my temper tantrums the past few days.
just see it as me getting steam off of my chest before the year ends.
thank you for putting up with me.
thank you for being patient.

next year next year
can't wait to spend
next year with you.

some days you just feel like shit.

i want to take one of those walks to nowhere and cry till i can't cry anymore.

The Last Christmas.

謝謝你給我最難忘的 christmas eve.

what a way to end off all christmases. 

13 weeks really?
how long before dwindling down?
i hope never.

But.

In a month, six months, a year, three years? No one can tell what will happen. A lot of things may change. All may change. All but one thing. I cannot tell you when it became this way, but for sure one thing will now stay the same, forever and always, and that is the place that you hold in my heart. Whatever happens - good, bad - that place is now yours. Permanent. Irreplaceable. Locked away.

i'm so glad that i waited
well you were almost there
almost mine... yeah
they say love ain't fair
but i'm doing fine..


cause i swear it's you
i swear it's you
i swear it's you that i've waited for
i swear it's you that my heart beats for
and it ain't gonna stop
no it just won't stop


i'm a lucky soul
that holds your hand so tight
you take this hand 
you take this heart
feels so cold without you
like its ten shades of winter

insecurities make us human